secrets it shall be.
Today was presentation day, so is the following monday and the week after that.
I didnt get called up today to present but most likely next monday.
Had sushi for dinner today. 2 salmon avocado sushi's.
Some people are so afraid, that they start making phone calls the min they get news that the whole world knows what they did wrong. trying to cover tracks. So obvious they're afraid and have things to hide.
Let me ask u something. if ure apart of a scandal and the police asks u if ure apart of it, what would u say?
Gimme an answer any human would. especially when there is no method of detection.
No dumb fool will admit and obviously if possible cover for all their friends so as to seem like the hero.
Well thats whats happening.
All the funny ways ppl try and clear their tracks. make phone calls from miles away just to cover the truth. So scared. so so scared. and not forgetting, so much guilt!
Oh well. just got to live like this. if u cant trust family, just trust yourself, cause someday i'll find a way to make this all go away, someday, things will be better for me. I wont have to go out of my way to prove my innocence and people will actually trust me and know who the real bad person is.
Someday.. someday... for now.. ive got to just shove everything where i cant see, feel or smell.
or ill crack and crumble.
Always having to watch my back, always having to wonder wht bad things are being said this time round. its not a simple task. its draining , mind and body! one day ill fall flat and that will probably be the day i am my happiest. To get away from all this shit and trouble others create for me.
The word Family doesnt make sense to me anymore.
Looking on the brighter side of my life, this sat will be a goldcoast day with my wonderful housemates who i feel are more of family to me now. We're gng for korean bbq, they said it was really good. And we're also gng to harbour town. yay! something to get me thru the dreadful week. Especially since 3052 mid sems is this coming Friday. i hope ill be able to shut the side of my brain where i wonder of the hurtful things ppl are saying. and just concentrate.
Last but not the least, i just live it how people assume so many many many things,
If i send out a night sms, u assume i had a night call too?
if i say aunty, do i only have 3?
need to drift far far away from this all....
bai
I didnt get called up today to present but most likely next monday.
Had sushi for dinner today. 2 salmon avocado sushi's.
Some people are so afraid, that they start making phone calls the min they get news that the whole world knows what they did wrong. trying to cover tracks. So obvious they're afraid and have things to hide.
Let me ask u something. if ure apart of a scandal and the police asks u if ure apart of it, what would u say?
Gimme an answer any human would. especially when there is no method of detection.
No dumb fool will admit and obviously if possible cover for all their friends so as to seem like the hero.
Well thats whats happening.
All the funny ways ppl try and clear their tracks. make phone calls from miles away just to cover the truth. So scared. so so scared. and not forgetting, so much guilt!
Oh well. just got to live like this. if u cant trust family, just trust yourself, cause someday i'll find a way to make this all go away, someday, things will be better for me. I wont have to go out of my way to prove my innocence and people will actually trust me and know who the real bad person is.
Someday.. someday... for now.. ive got to just shove everything where i cant see, feel or smell.
or ill crack and crumble.
Always having to watch my back, always having to wonder wht bad things are being said this time round. its not a simple task. its draining , mind and body! one day ill fall flat and that will probably be the day i am my happiest. To get away from all this shit and trouble others create for me.
The word Family doesnt make sense to me anymore.
Looking on the brighter side of my life, this sat will be a goldcoast day with my wonderful housemates who i feel are more of family to me now. We're gng for korean bbq, they said it was really good. And we're also gng to harbour town. yay! something to get me thru the dreadful week. Especially since 3052 mid sems is this coming Friday. i hope ill be able to shut the side of my brain where i wonder of the hurtful things ppl are saying. and just concentrate.
Last but not the least, i just live it how people assume so many many many things,
If i send out a night sms, u assume i had a night call too?
if i say aunty, do i only have 3?
need to drift far far away from this all....
bai