GCMJM

 When hope is gone.  When you try your hardest to scream! When you try your hardest to make them see! When you try your hardest to understand and come to their Senses but in the end it’s still back to square one.  Some battles are not worth fighting after losing countless times When it’s so clear they don’t want you around and prefer others to you. They prefer to spend all quality time with the others but not yours.  It’s time to go. And this time. It will be for good.  She said to leave so we will. Her wish will be granted. Be careful of what you say or what you wish for. You will lose the people who were the most genuine in your life and you will be left with the pretentious ones. What you looked at was just money fame and attention but all that will fade and true characters will show in due time. Till then , it will be too late to regret because I will be gone. We will be gone. The kids you chose to neglect for others will be gone. The ones who were the most genuine and pure of hear

 Shit happens and sometimes.  1st kid down with influenza and then encephalitis. Life never the same again. Finances are all put into getting her better. Therapy and classes and interventions. We spend about 10k+ on her a month. Little bro only take a small portion of that and only has Chinese classes apart from school.  To think you get family who are supportive? Umm think again?  People who rat you out when you just ask for help when you’re practically alone having to split yourself picking 2 kids schooling 45 mins away from each other. Having school meetings after work and knowing you can only get 1 of the 2 and need help to get the other if not there will be a penalty. So you ask for help. But you get trouble for this cause certain evil family members instead of offering help prefer to cause more problems for you.  Now, the grandparents of the 2 little kids, they favour the half angmo grandkids only and spend all the weekends dining out with the half-white grandkids. Never once ask

TRIP FROM HELL I cal sum this trip from hell in bullet points -SELFISH -SELFCENTERED -SELF ENTITLEMENT -THINKS THE WHOLE FUCKING WORLD IS AGAINST YOU AND YOURE NOT THE PROBLEM Who goes for ever trip and buys new shoes the day before every time? Go shopping only must must get lipstick?! Butter effing fingers caused nail polish to fall and splatter,! And what? Behavior went out of control like the world was goin to collapse! Wtf?' U think magic ah? I ended up on my bloody hands and knees on the damn floor cleaning While the empress moved her mouth . Only know how to move mouth! And it was her fault And can say u know what?' " something is keeping me from goin on this trip , should not go!" Piss me more! Then it was me who cleaned her bloody pants can still say, it's my fav pants! Get over it la. Everything also fav! Then not enough must buy new one. Show friggin attitude! At dfs can pay tgt to get 100 but no too self centered! So in the end. I lost

Sometimes you just gotta be fierce and give people the cold treatment and somehow they start moving their ass, stop being lazy and do their job. If you're too nice, people climb all over you and think you're their friend and think you would do their job for them. I had enough of that. For this one particular staff, not being friendly to her works out just fine! Actually Spectacularly !!! Work has been okay. quite satisfying to see the bank account grow each month. Tend to be more of a miser now. Although work can be tiring at times it literally pays off each month on the 28th. Been happier lately .. hopefully this is a continuous exponential climb and not one that hits the ground again. So many weddings to attend these few months. Weddings are expensive to attend. =( okbai

I feel very strongly against people who treat others like dirt just because they think they have attained a certain status which gives them the right to. Some attain such 'status'only cause someone worked hard and they just feed off it. I see this everyday.... but i cant stop it. I don't have enough power and when i try to, i get yelled or get labelled 'bias''. People fabricate lies/scenarios/ stories that are non-existent , made up only in the head and believe them to be true. Why? because they have nothing better to do and cannot live with peace longer than a month. You cant take away someones job/future based on something you made up with no evidence at all. How can you live with yourself? how can u call yourself a good person? A good person is kind, a good person has patience. I see nothing like that in you. People who are not as fortunate have to travel to another country to find for work that will help them and their families, but you treat their

It's been a few days but it's still so raw. I miss u so much thumper and I'd give almost anything to have u back. I don't think I'd get over losing U. U have been a part of me for 5 years and It seems like I had u for 50 years. I'll never for get these years spent with u and I think You went away too soon. It was so hard seeing u motionless and it was harder to have u cremated. My fluffy bunny Reduced to bones. Hurts so so much. I'll never get over this ever. Never! I wish I had more time with u and I wish u were able to tell me if u were going to leave me. Why was it so sudden. U were a healthy bunny. I'll try to feel better... But I know deep down . However hard I try to mask my sadness it'll never go away and u will be in my thoughts forever. I'll keep wondering where u are and what u have become. Wherever u are. I hope u are happy and safe. And when it is my time. I'll find u and give u a big hug. Till then , take care