GCMJM

Things are getting more stressful at work. more staying back more log-booking, more project meetings and more studying for the upcoming competency. How can one juggle so much? Do they think i am a robot? ok maybe they just think im very capable..  Its just very stressful. Very tiring. Very Very Tiring. This rotation has proven to be the opposite from what i expected it to be. Im actually loving it more than i thought i would. Ive made so many good friends in this rotation that i wanna just remain here forever. And i think this wld be my posing anyway since im performing up-to-standard... i think. Everything else has been going smooth so far and im thankful! The only minor set back, is a minor sore throat and sneezes.. other than that, life has been pretty good. I was supposed to go to universal studios on sunday but decided against it as character dining only happens once weekly on sats! So we've decided it wld be smarter to just go on a sat. Went to try the oh-so-raved abo...

There are some things that are beyond your control and you just have to conform if not .... you're screwed.  If i cant finish work on time cause something happened that just means i cant. its not school anymore... its work. im getting paid for this. ok enough about this. its frustrating. On a better brighter note. i dont have to tell people awkwardly tt we arn't tgt  when they ask if we are from now on. Cause we are ! yay! im glad we are keeping it down low anyhow.. more publicity means more haters and more haters means more trouble, more trouble means ..... well... trouble. Store rotation has been fun. Slack to the max and the uncles there are soooooo nice! Love it there. I literally go to work happy. Why cant everyone be like that at work? And lastly, im going to the zoo tmr! cant wait! Freeeeeee entry cause i managed to ballot successfully for the pass. cant wait cant wait. but sadly the pandas are at a diff area ... only accessible by river safari which is anothe...

Funny how things work. I recall the past relationship i had... i recall being devastated that it ended. I felt that life was cruel and that everything was against me. I hated how i felt. Didnt have an appetite, didnt wanna go out, didnt even wanna listen to music. I was basically depressed. Now, i look back! I laugh! I shld have been the happiest person on the planet. To be able to get out of such a shit relationship and realise i deserve much more than a shit person.  I was lucky to get out of that rutt. If i didnt realise sooner ... i would hv carried on and still be in that rutt. Im thankful shit happened. If not for the shit that happened i would not have met him today. I wouldnt have known what this happiness felt like. I Would not have realised that being treated like a princess was a possibility. I guess not all bad things that happen are bad. Some bad things happen just so u find something more awsome . Something u deserve more.

Was lucky to get a 1 and a half day proj time off today. Decided to go have lunch with him ... we ended up at Prive at Keppel island. Reminds me of Brisbane... somewhat. Thereafter, we walked to vivo city and had starbucks.. chatted abit and walked abit. Introduced him to boost juice, got a blend of (pineapple,orange,ginger and mango) juice. He was a lil afraid of trying the ginger bit but did it anyway. After trying it.... it was all good!. Some not so nice things happened and he had to explain some things to me. Seems like he is really not the kind to see things from my perspective.

So just some updates on whats going on. He asked me out on Friday night... basically saying that his friends were going to hang out at pasir ris park and if i would like to join in. So......... if u don't already know... im not all that sociable. I don't do very well with new people. BUT i could tell from his texts that he really wanted me to be there to meet them. Like he thought it was about time for them to meet me and me them..... kinda ... i think. I also felt that he thought that it was important to see me get along with his friends first as a deciding factor if we could progress on with anything.... if any. So i went. And so i met new people. They were okay... i guess. Friendly. Only one of em' i wasn't too impressed with. Thereafter he asked if i was free after sending ALL of them home. Of coz say free la... siao or what. So we went to ECP and we both got coffees. All hyped up and energised we walked to the jetty and he wanted to throw me over =/. yuppp...

Date 2 So he picked me and opened the door for me again. I like that, cause i think the little things matter most. We went to carl's jr for supper, i wasn't too hungry so i just had a milkshake. Thereafter, we went to catch iron man at Vivo city. I think it was't as good a show as i expected it to be cause of the better marvel shows prior. So after that we decided to go have an ice milo at Bapok area and he took me to this broadwalk next to changi beach club. Was a nice walk, but the air was too still.... no breeze nothing! but still a nice walk. He then sent me home and kissed me... ahhhhh.....sucha gentlemen....... i saw unicorns =) Anyway, i like how things are moving slowly... i needa get used to being close to someone again after all these years... its not that simple. I still hold back a lot when im out .. maybe cause we've only just started this going-out thing... I still feel bad when he pays for stuff... idk y. I just cant feel good about people pay...

Although it has been a tiring week.. Studying for forensics exam and going on ICU rounds. It has still been a wonderful week. Theres is definitely a skip in my step. Haven't been happier. Going for the holistic fair with the cousin tmr and hopefully be able to go to the temple to give some thanks and pray to be smarter cause i really need some more brain.