GCMJM

“Blessed is he who expects nothing, for he shall never be disappointed.” ― Alexander Pope “There were two ways to be happy: improve your reality, or lower your expectations” ― Jodi Picoult, Nineteen Minutes “The secret self knows the anguish of our attachments and assures us that letting go of what we think we must have to be happy is the same as letting go of our unhappiness.” ― Guy Finley Have to start living like this.

So apparently, i missed the transit of venus on the 6th of june. The next one will occur when im dead and gone (2117) HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA so i was curious and went to do some research on it. saw some spectacular videos. this was what i unearthed , “our love lives enter a fated period where we may relive past life experiences in order to sort out karmic issues. Old friends or lovers may reappear and there may be more difficulty in giving and receiving love and affection“.  the conflict between good and evil, Michael and Lucifer. It opens up a gaping hole where we are confronted with all the fear and confusion of the unknown. It ties the picture together really, intense feelings of love and hate, exposing the evil, fighting it, then filling the void a higher form of love. The light at the end of the tunnel is shown by the Moon and Pluto sextile Chiron, the healing of the obsessions or bad habits which have been the source of the conflict. interesting. okbai

I've come to realise that in all that i do i should always hope for the worst outcome so that if good happens, it'll be a bonus and if bad happens, it would have been anticipated and prepared for. No need for any sadness or disappointment. In other words, don't be optimistic. Today is the submission of the business plan. We took a month to complete this SH*T!! On a positive note, my lecturer watched my video and loved it. Even said i was clever! hahahaha After tonight, its gonna be exam chionging allll the way...late nights of hardcore study! okbai

Everything has been going great until today. Why do you always have to ruin everything with your childish ways. You hold grudges and bring up the past.You then rub it in peoples faces and make yourself victim.  You call yourself holy? Whats the point in praying? going to church and staying there for hours? I have given up sense into you. You will never take it in and retain it. You believe what you want and think what you want. The truth obviously does not matter to you. All you want to be is the one that wins every fight. It does not matter if you are wrong. You are afraid that i may never come back home. Why? Because you know that i am happier away from home? YOU are probably the reason why i would not want to ever go back although i want to so bad. I just cannot take your constant unreasonable rantings. Be it at the maid or family members. I just cannot take it. its too much for me. i also hate how you put people down. do you really think you are so damn great? NVM. i d...

For the very first time ever since a really long time. i am actually  really looking forward to uni and seeing my friends. i think the last time i felt like this was back in kindergarten on my first day of school. HHAHAHAHAHAHA First day of uni was superb. baked cookies and gave them to the people closest to me and they were so appreciative. Great start to the new semester. Cal the man pal came to pick us up to school. Then we went to have 1m long pizza and went to la dolce vita after that. So he is gonna be our group mate for manufacturing lab for the whole year. CANT WAIT. Today they told us about all the projects that have to be done. ALOT. but nvm... better than working. =D kbai. off to 2nd day of school

Work has been very tiring. I wake up at 630 on a good day and 530 Monday's n Tuesday's All because I have to travel to a further pharmacy out of the city. So I am tired everyday, on top of that I have to face shitty patients daily. I'm basically front line. Take in scripts and teach them how to use their medications. Most can't be bothered to stay and listen and those are the patients who make my day so much easier . So on top of having to go to work. I have an ASSignmnt, a report and daily logs to complete. There is no time for anything else. Life practically sucks now. On a brighter note, I've made many new friends And I've gotten a hang of work and the routine. But see, when I get familiar, it is time to go. Bittersweet. Boss asked me if I was looking for pre-reg or a job. I said yea and no cause i don't wanna disappoint by taking leave when I go home during th holidays and yes cause the extra cash can come in handy. I told her to call me wheneve...