GCMJM

And so what I deemed special isn't anymore. It's all a lie. I don't understand anymore. I'm beginning to let go and lose hope. No more motivation no more drive. I'm giving up.

House hunting for the past month has been an eye opener. Houses are so goddamn expensive! Everything seems to be above a million . Sure ! There are loans but take a million loan? And work all your life to pay it off? No travels ? No indulgences ? No room for fun ? Just work work work work work? Have to find something that strikes a balance but so far , nothing. The one that I want is way out of budget! :( sadness. Oh well .... Got to move on and keep on searching. So much more to think about other than work. My brain is working overtime. Work has become a routine thing that I dread everyday. I feel like I'm in a very small box! No space to move , no space to grow. Work ot, no extra pay, can't even claim hours, so  why should I put in extra time? Why should I dedicate myself to work when there isn't any job satisfaction. Can't wait to make a switch. Least wherever I'm going I know that the harder I work the more rewards I'll reap. This way there's m